Sunday, January 4, 2009

It would take a miracle...

Here's the low down at the Cook household: AKA the latest drama filled episode, the continuation... if you will...

We have managed to hang on for the past 9 months since closing our business, in high hopes that we would get the job that would "solve it all" in Mesa, Arizona. Not my ideal place to move. C'mon, I am a wet Seattle girl. 85 degrees is way too hot for me. But geez, I followed my man to the cold, windy, treeless (ok, virtually treeless) place of Idaho to follow his dreams. Why wouldn't I follow him elsewhere for financial security and a job he already went to school for? Well, after passing all of the background investigations and rigorous testing, we received a call saying 'we would love to offer you a job, but, due to the economic crisis there is a hiring freeze..."

So we jumped to plan B. He is 3 years into getting a license that takes 4 years, and even better, if he goes back to school at ISU this year for another program, it adds to the license he's getting next year and makes him even more valuable, and I won't have to worry about him going undercover on a drug bust and getting shot at at 2 AM while he is patrolling in his sexy cop uniform, plus, we don't have to move to a HOT place. Double perk.

Plan B entails going to school from 8-3 everyday. Shoot. We still need another job since now he can only work in the evenings (which we haven't been able to get for the past 9 months), we also still need to downsize it to 'student' life again aka: apartment living with 4, count em' 4 little crazies that are all under the age of 7, and lets face it, we still haven't sold our house. Oh, did I mention school starts in 1 week? Ooooh, did I also mention we get to bring #4 home in like 2-3 weeks also?

My big master plan is not so much working out. Unless, by some miracle we sell our house in the next 7 days, and or get another job that will support his school schedule and still somewhat pay the bills, and if we hear from the school that there were still pell grant funds and financial aid funds available so we can pay for school... it looks like school will be put off until August. IF we get accepted back into the program again.

But for now, sigh, I guess we have to put up with a constantly traveling parent, and hope that there really is someone who navigates the 'big' picture for us and has our best interests in mind. Cuz that is what we really want. I do realize that my way, is not always the best way.

I just wish that if my master plan wasn't going to work out anyways, we could stop having people call to come and 'see' the house. Every time someone does or does not show up for a looksy after my rigorous cleaning and hollering at the kids not to 'touch anything!!!' I get my hopes up that it all might work out by some miracles. It is seriously toying with my emotions.

2 people are coming tomorrow to look. It could all still happen, right?! Like I said, totally toying with my emotions.


the wood family said...

It is a terrible time for everyone right now, especially trying to sell a home.

Pell grants are a wonderful thing I am crossing my fingers you get one because it could be the answer to your prayers.

Even student loans are good. I am sure you guys have looked at all your options but if you haven't looked into a student loan all you need to do is go to the student aid office. A student loan usually doesn't require you to pay it back until you graduate and it gives you money for housing, books, and tution. My brother in-law lived on them all through is college years...he had 4 kids, no job, and a house (sound familar). They would give him 15k a semester. They managed and now he is making 6 figures as a hospital administrator which allows him to easily pay back his loans. I am sure you would qualify especially with 4 kids, I am not sure how much you could qualify for but it is worth a shot if you haven't tried. Good luck and you are in our prayers.

Jenny said...

Hey this stinks really bad for you but hey on a brighter note your still livin next to me and still able to cry with me anytime. I feel the same as you with what the bigger picture is and the patience part is killing me and my emotions too. If I hear "this shall pass too" one more time I'm gonna I don't know what but we have our health and our families and our faith and each other for support you know I love ya and here for you too. Call me I ready to help get that baby out sista. lol your my last hope!!!!

Katie said...

I know that things will work out. Donnie and I have been there before and it always does. Sometimes the way you would like and sometimes not but after looking back it was the right thing. It doesn't stick in the meanwhile. Hang in there.

emily said...

you are the strongest person i know! you're my hero! i miss you girl!

Mrs. B said...

YAY for Super Jenny-yes, I mean both of you. Anyway--I won't say this too will pass, but I promise that whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger. But I also know you sometimes wish it would kill you-its a little less stress.
Anyway, keep smiling and remember, I love you!